Is my depression real?
I suffer from two weeks of anger,
irritability and total sadness, two
weeks of every month.
My depression really started after
the birth of my baby three years ago.
Her father died when I was two months
pregnant. After the birth I turned
into myself and (for a while) to alcohol.
Nothing helped. I've now met a wonderful
man I plan to marry, but my depression
just descends on me like clockwork.
Is it PMS? Or am I just being difficult,
as some people tell me?
I really don't want to be like this.
It hurts me to hurt the feelings of
those I love when I'm like this.
First, if it feels real, then it's
real - how can anyone else say different?
Now, the nature of it; low mood,
hormone related, reaction to your
experience, or from deep within you,
not only can outsiders be wrong, but
you can too.
Of course you have feelings about
the things that have happened, but
that doesn't always mean that those
feelings have caused your depressive
You need expert help - not so much
to get over it, but to get to the
bottom of it - you're making the effort,
but if you understood more, that effort
is more likely to be directed where
it needs to be.
. The fact that you are depressed
about your depression (if you see
what I mean) and taking steps to move
on, is a very good sign.
Take Courage, you'll get there.